I never really figured out if it's a forgiveness issue or not.
What I did realize, is that for our marriage to heal, for me to heal, I need to at least try to change my thinking.
And so last night, I committed to FireMan that I will love him.
I will try to view THE LIE as a mistake - a big one, for sure, but a mistake none the less.
I will try to see him how I used to see him, and this as just a mistake that he made, not as something that changed who he was.
I'm not sure how to accomplish that, but I will try.
After all, we all make mistakes. Some bigger than others. And so don't we owe each other a little forgiveness, grace, and mercy?
I will love him.